In January I revealed within a Message from Love episode the dream I had heading into 2025. I was seated in a rollercoaster without a seatbelt looking up at a dark sky filled with twinkling stars and I heard the word “Kali” repeated like a soft, gentle chant. In describing that dream I said, “hold onto your hats!” 😊
Well upon reflection, I think many of us didn’t bother to hold on, I certainly didn’t. I let go of the hat and felt the depths of my world and its raw, wild, unfiltered truth. It ravaged me, saddened me, it loved me and inspired me to live life unapologetically.
No one can authentically carry God’s flame if they continue pretending they don’t see what they see, feel what they feel, speak from the heart and bravely let go of the false pretenses filtering their flame.
Kali is revered in Hinduism as the “Divine Mother” (𝐾𝑎𝑙𝑖 𝑀𝑎) because she is seen as a loving and protective mother who destroys evil and negative forces, embodying the strength of Mother Nature. While she represents fierce destruction, this is a necessary aspect of her role as a life-giving and transformative deity, symbolised by the cyclical nature of creation and destruction.
For a new you to be created, the old one must be released. And it is the new you which manifests new life. Creation is a frequency, so to align with new creation in 2026 the old must be cleared. 2025 served to release us from the old (hence a ‘9’ year in numerology: 2+0+2+5 which represents endings), not just physically but energetically through the sacred fires of the Divine Mother; “Holy Shekinah”, the Holy Spirit – the feminine aspect of God whose presence is with us to assist in our awakening to birth the inner Christ conducive to the ‘second coming’ – we are it! Whilst Jesus revealed he would leave us with the “comforter” which is the Holy Spirit, Jesus also teaches us within A Course in Miracles that the Holy Spirit dispels illusions by guiding the mind to the truth through forgiveness.
2025 was a pivotal year to forgive ourselves for forgetting the truth of who we are.
It can feel like a destructive process because we cling tightly to everything familiar; everything we want to believe to be true to defend our beliefs, but the Holy Spirit helps bring illusions to the light so they can be dissolved enabling you to live a more authentic and inspired life.
For me personally the crescendo hit several weeks ago. One of my spirit guides returned (who I write about in the introduction of my book). He first made his presence known audibly in one of my meditations in a Messages from Love episode. The next morning something was cracking within me, I could barely contain myself as I dropped my daughter off at school and what felt like a deep well of density rising within me, I couldn’t contain the tears. Before I even reached the garage I’m wailing out loud and when in the darkness of the car inside the chamber of my momentary holy place (the garage) my guide sat beside me to hold space, the way a true shaman does unafraid of my depths, unafraid of the sacred rage the feminine carries after centuries of suppression because a patriarchal society is afraid of her power for she embodies truth and that defies the shallow, greedy and ruthless ways of false power which has to deceive, manipulate, use and abuse to maintain it’s position of perceived control.
Now if you’re spiritually mature, you’ll understand this is not an angry feminist attack here, but a revelation that the divine feminine within ALL of us has been suppressed. The intensity of sacred rage I experienced was beyond my own, I was viscerally transmuting through my body with the Holy Spirt fire density which is the effect of abuse inflicted upon women for centuries. This is beyond inequality, it predominately related to suppression of her voice which inherently stands for truth, justice and fairness, for at the core she knows balance is wholeness and when you deny her voice, you’re denying the ability for humanity to rise up into their divine inherent nature. I experienced visions of women unjustly sent to mental institutions for daring to stand for truth and fairness within a marriage, community or society or burned at the stake for knowing more than those attempting to dominate the collective mind.
The game is over. I have cleared the slate because the healing I do for my soul, I do for you too. It’s the nature of this realm. Your choices effect all of us. When I left an unhealthy marriage all those years ago there was a deeper part of me which felt that this decision was beyond just my-self. It was a radical act of love on behalf of all my sisters across all time who felt trapped in relationships because of financial reasons or because of the children. If I did it and and made it through, I knew that at an energetic level I was reminding my sisters that when you walk with God, anything is possible.
After the release I was graced with something profound, I experienced union with my guide, for everything he was and is merged with me and this activated a remembrance of what was in me all along.
I am an embodied shaman. Jesus called me a “death doula” earlier in the year, for I am here to help humanity release the old self and world, to accept death as a necessary part of the evolutionary cycle and not be afraid of it. I help humanity recognise that it is by letting go of the old we make space to step into our creator frequency and discover a new way walking in the world.
I serve the most high God bridging humanity from the old world to the new, leading us closer to home as a state of consciousness and I appreciate the opportunity to share my heart and soul with you through my devoted service upon this Earth.
Note – This article was originally published in 2025.
